Uncontrollably Fond of Rain

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Finally this chapter of closure....
"Milji Ma" (Korean)
Saying bye to my friends, best friends, and this city....

For long i wanted to move out... and now i am leaving everything behind... no old places to remember the old memories...

After continuously crying and missing everyone... i know it happened for a reason... why i felt i will leave... why now i believe i don't have much time... to stay long with people i love...

i already disconnect with most in past months... and today i said bye to my closest friend...who was my best friend... i know i am not his...but after really long time someone was my best friend... 2 months ago i already told him to disconnect ...3 months ago i started to disconnect so that he realises..but i guess people who are imp only they remember ...i am glad he has forgotten...its easy for me....now i dnt have any reason to stay nor he ever gave me any reasons to stay.....
but i will always be thankful to him to be my calmer....my best friend...someone whom i loved unconditionally....someone who gave me some beautiful memories which i never thought it to be a reality but actually he unknowing made some of my dreams to reality...
May he find his way...and always be loved!!!!

This city gave me a lot.... i saw myself grow...connect and faced my fear and weakness..... but i was never in love this place... i always said to myself... i am here for my family...

All day i was crying because now i don't have reason to stay behind.... even my family equation is back to normal now... always it was supposed to happen... me moving out!!! Moving out of my home... the place i have endless memories...where i faced my worst fears...and where i faced seeing life with a smile despite how i was...

This year this month... my last few days!!! how shall i not celebrate... dance in Rain... yupp finally after years i danced in rain... it been years i did that...

Thank you, everyone, in my past to give me memories...to live in my present!
Strange i completed my 10 years here.... it took me 10 years to move out... where i always wanted everyone to be together... where mom prayed daily to put the family together in one place... where i learn about me ...where i learned to love unconditionally and let go....

All the checklist complete!

its time now to learn to be in solitude emotionally and physically in reality......

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