Fallen in Love all over again!

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it's been a while I have written anything...
but he took me off my old stale life and let me imagine a life I never dared to see...

yes! I am in love all over again.. but this time again I had to push not because he is not right... only because we aren't right...

who said that you only can fall in love with someone right...

he is right for me in every aspect but one thing only brought to this point was... I still didn't know him and fallen for him... this combination is very dangerous...

I guess another reason can be ...since I don't know him... I don't know what I am for him... but looking at his mute response... I guess I was wrong to imagine that I can ever be of anyone's life importance...

this year Jan 2019 we met... I just thought he was only being friendly... never imagined that I would end up being his girlfriend...

never ever in my wildest dream, I ever thought he would be interested in me...
never ever in my wildest dream I ever would have heard those words he said.... he definitely very good with words... but I understand he has his own challenges to no to keep his words with me...

but that is the point... only if I knew him.. only if I understood him.. I might I have not broken up...


I know I love him despite that I broke up... coz i feel i dont make him happy...

i am a crazy person who get sensitive and not selfish when fallen in love ...he is perfect for me physically and emotionally... but i dont know what i am for him..

i always discovered myself with him... but not sure if he is happy around me...

i always felt comfortable with him being next to me... but not sure if he comfortable with my touch...

with time i wanted more... and i am not sure if he wants more...

i am madly in love with Vipin with whom i broke up...

wished he loved me too... wished he missed me too... i really wanted him to be mine and i be his forever... but i guess... like my previous post... i will always be alone forever...

may he be always happy in life.............................

My only dream of holding someone hand , hug him forever will always be a myth...

Love you! Take care... Bebs...

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