First Picnic.....First Trip...
it was my first outdoor trip with no guardians... i was nervous and excited for my new phase of life...
don't remember what i have dreamt those days...
But those days he was my friend and i was more than a friend for him.....
it was early morning..... and our group both guys and grls planned to go out to a near by hill station which sound adventurous....
The morning arrived, my first outdoor trip and only friends....excited and nervous both at the same time...
We girls dressed up and walked out of the colg campus , where our guy friends were waiting for us with a cab that we booked earlier for the trip....
We thought that cab would be good idea to reach to that hill stations and we thought while returning we shall take a bus.... who ddn know what exactly was planned for us...
well.. as said before they were waiting for us outside the colg campus...it was small variant car, and i really don't know how we 6 adjusted in that cab...still caring a vague picture in back of my mind....
Well! Somehow we adjusted and were off to the hill station.... he was sitting right next me... and he looked more happier than ever....
"Strange!" my mind said to myself... "why is he smiling so much"...
We finally reached the bottom of the hill station , from where we needed to walk up and no car would go ahead... so we left the car their... it was nice lush green place completely covered with tress and green bushes... we saw few small shops at the road side serving tea and some snacks...
We have already got some snacks with us and my girlfriends were good planner...for a trip.. we planned to move up and checkout the place that we have to visit...
while going up , we all got the idea of how much uphill walk it required...if i remember correctly we were half way and we started seeing ruins and some old sculpture on the pathways...and we started taking some pictures..and very much needed breaks...
Well we reached ...and found a temple inside a cave which was famous among the locals. Some of us wanted to visit the temple first and than look around the top view of the hills.. and others just the opposite...
So we plan to divide ...some went to visit the temple... some of us ahead to explore the hills and the beautiful view it had from the top of the mountain...
As we walked with different pace... some went ahead of us and i was behind....when we reached to the top of the hill... i looked around and the view was beautiful...by the time i reached up my legs were bit swollen...
For some moment i was bit blank... and later i realized were are the boys...and saw some of them... near edge of the hill... when i saw them.. i was shocked... they were at the near the edge of the hills... and they turned back and waved back to us....one of my friend told me to come down and join them....
I was scared...obviously... its looked risky... and these mad guys where enjoying the cool breeze and the site from the edge...
Don't remember what went in my mind at that point of time....so i tried going half way...where i could see the guys siting on the rock and enjoying the moment... i was standing behind...bit scared ....i saw he was missing and the guys told me he is at the very edge of the hill... i went bit further to see... and i saw him standing at the edge of the hill and enjoying...my mind was racing with endless question... " OMG is he insanely mad??? something will happen ?? Their is no guard to watch??? No parents.. no one.... but himself to take care of his own steps....
Their he was standing at the edge... not fearing of the height and the speed of wind...making his hair fly...that look ... that glimpse... remind me , either he was fearless.. or insane...but he had guts to do that....with no protection.....
After a while the guys stood up and went up to explore other places... and i was siting over their itself...for some reason... unknowingly... i wanted to keep an eye on him...don't know why at that point of time... why i wanted to watch him over...i guess i realized very late... unknowingly i started caring for him...
He came up and said its very exciting you should come... in back of my mind... are u crazy?? me at the edge?? no protection??? nobdy to look above if something happens???.. i said no first.. and told him i m scared...
After few convincing process... he assured me... don't worry i am there!! For the first time i wanted to face my fear of heights... and dared myself to try...but truth was i was bloody scared....
Slowly we went down... as we were coming to the edges the rocks were at an angle that i started to be bit inclined towards the floor of the rocks while walking...i was scared to be slipped...and their i reached the edge of the hill...
At the edge their was a stone bit down inclined...let say the extended version of the edge ... he told lets go down..." i told him are mad... no way.. my height i wont reach down... u saw me standing at the edge... their it was ....i was standing over their"
he went to the extended version of the edge... that place was actually better compared to where i was as it was at straight angle .. hence holds up the balance well...
"he again told me to come down.".. i told" i wont be able to come up.... it too low for me... " he than said.." don't worry "take the support of the leg... and come down... he place his legs to make a step support for me...and i hold his hand and put a foot on his leg to easily come down....
"Their u see it wasn't that hard".. my mind said yeah rite...i was bloody at the edge of the hill n my fear of height was put to a test... i looked down... every damn thing was looking like small miniatures...trees ..cars...roadways... and he was sitting at the edge enjoying and smiling....
i looked down... and stepped back ... i stayed back till the time i was their... my mind said to me" u are crazy... u have come to the edge of the mountain with a guy who u barely know.. u are no more in the protective world... u are here on your own... either he is crazy or i am crazy".... n i saw him for a while... he was looking at the view.. the winds were like having race match... how hard .. how fast they can be .... and he was smiling... his hair was flowing and his shirt too...the look on his face was something i cant define.. felt like he was satisfied ..or a glimpse of achieving a goal...he was happy...
After a while he said..lets go back...so he went ahead and climbed up... now it was my turn... i knew that wall was high.. i needed support to come up... he told me "hold my hand"... i was scared.. i tried once twice.. but it was too high for me to climb on my own... he said "hold my hand i will pull u up.." i said "it won't be possible" he said" don't worry... i wont let u fall" i just looked at him .. he again said... trust me.. i will not let u fall.. hold my hand... i wont let it go"... i hold his hand ..tried pulling myself up... but my hand hurt...so finally gave a last try and as i was tring up i asked to help me pull up my legs.. and with his support i was up... in this due coarse while coming up i lost my balance a bit and i thought i am dead.. i closed by eyes...
after few seconds i opened my eyes.. and saw that i did not slip of the edge and was next to him ...he was holding my hand tight... i was scared...i practically shouted at him.. i told you... this was crazy.. ur mad ..and god knows what all... he replied.. "i told you i wont let u fall.. i wont leave your hand...."
That moment was something else...We were sitting their for a moment to grab all the senses back to normal...after a while when i realized what just happened...we stood a bit and took support of the rocks to climb back... i was tired while going up and was angry on myself for being so stupid and risking my life in such manner... i started saying bad words to him... n my anger energy was helping to climb the rocks ...all the way till we reached to the top i was cursing him for convincing me to do such stupid stuff..n he was laughing smiling all the way... strange i ddn say abt this episode to anyone...
don't remember what i have dreamt those days...
But those days he was my friend and i was more than a friend for him.....
it was early morning..... and our group both guys and grls planned to go out to a near by hill station which sound adventurous....
The morning arrived, my first outdoor trip and only friends....excited and nervous both at the same time...
We girls dressed up and walked out of the colg campus , where our guy friends were waiting for us with a cab that we booked earlier for the trip....
We thought that cab would be good idea to reach to that hill stations and we thought while returning we shall take a bus.... who ddn know what exactly was planned for us...
well.. as said before they were waiting for us outside the colg campus...it was small variant car, and i really don't know how we 6 adjusted in that cab...still caring a vague picture in back of my mind....
Well! Somehow we adjusted and were off to the hill station.... he was sitting right next me... and he looked more happier than ever....
"Strange!" my mind said to myself... "why is he smiling so much"...
We finally reached the bottom of the hill station , from where we needed to walk up and no car would go ahead... so we left the car their... it was nice lush green place completely covered with tress and green bushes... we saw few small shops at the road side serving tea and some snacks...
We have already got some snacks with us and my girlfriends were good planner...for a trip.. we planned to move up and checkout the place that we have to visit...
while going up , we all got the idea of how much uphill walk it required...if i remember correctly we were half way and we started seeing ruins and some old sculpture on the pathways...and we started taking some pictures..and very much needed breaks...
Well we reached ...and found a temple inside a cave which was famous among the locals. Some of us wanted to visit the temple first and than look around the top view of the hills.. and others just the opposite...
So we plan to divide ...some went to visit the temple... some of us ahead to explore the hills and the beautiful view it had from the top of the mountain...
As we walked with different pace... some went ahead of us and i was behind....when we reached to the top of the hill... i looked around and the view was beautiful...by the time i reached up my legs were bit swollen...
For some moment i was bit blank... and later i realized were are the boys...and saw some of them... near edge of the hill... when i saw them.. i was shocked... they were at the near the edge of the hills... and they turned back and waved back to us....one of my friend told me to come down and join them....
I was scared...obviously... its looked risky... and these mad guys where enjoying the cool breeze and the site from the edge...
Don't remember what went in my mind at that point of time....so i tried going half way...where i could see the guys siting on the rock and enjoying the moment... i was standing behind...bit scared ....i saw he was missing and the guys told me he is at the very edge of the hill... i went bit further to see... and i saw him standing at the edge of the hill and enjoying...my mind was racing with endless question... " OMG is he insanely mad??? something will happen ?? Their is no guard to watch??? No parents.. no one.... but himself to take care of his own steps....
Their he was standing at the edge... not fearing of the height and the speed of wind...making his hair fly...that look ... that glimpse... remind me , either he was fearless.. or insane...but he had guts to do that....with no protection.....
After a while the guys stood up and went up to explore other places... and i was siting over their itself...for some reason... unknowingly... i wanted to keep an eye on him...don't know why at that point of time... why i wanted to watch him over...i guess i realized very late... unknowingly i started caring for him...
He came up and said its very exciting you should come... in back of my mind... are u crazy?? me at the edge?? no protection??? nobdy to look above if something happens???.. i said no first.. and told him i m scared...
After few convincing process... he assured me... don't worry i am there!! For the first time i wanted to face my fear of heights... and dared myself to try...but truth was i was bloody scared....
Slowly we went down... as we were coming to the edges the rocks were at an angle that i started to be bit inclined towards the floor of the rocks while walking...i was scared to be slipped...and their i reached the edge of the hill...
At the edge their was a stone bit down inclined...let say the extended version of the edge ... he told lets go down..." i told him are mad... no way.. my height i wont reach down... u saw me standing at the edge... their it was ....i was standing over their"
he went to the extended version of the edge... that place was actually better compared to where i was as it was at straight angle .. hence holds up the balance well...
"he again told me to come down.".. i told" i wont be able to come up.... it too low for me... " he than said.." don't worry "take the support of the leg... and come down... he place his legs to make a step support for me...and i hold his hand and put a foot on his leg to easily come down....
"Their u see it wasn't that hard".. my mind said yeah rite...i was bloody at the edge of the hill n my fear of height was put to a test... i looked down... every damn thing was looking like small miniatures...trees ..cars...roadways... and he was sitting at the edge enjoying and smiling....
i looked down... and stepped back ... i stayed back till the time i was their... my mind said to me" u are crazy... u have come to the edge of the mountain with a guy who u barely know.. u are no more in the protective world... u are here on your own... either he is crazy or i am crazy".... n i saw him for a while... he was looking at the view.. the winds were like having race match... how hard .. how fast they can be .... and he was smiling... his hair was flowing and his shirt too...the look on his face was something i cant define.. felt like he was satisfied ..or a glimpse of achieving a goal...he was happy...
After a while he said..lets go back...so he went ahead and climbed up... now it was my turn... i knew that wall was high.. i needed support to come up... he told me "hold my hand"... i was scared.. i tried once twice.. but it was too high for me to climb on my own... he said "hold my hand i will pull u up.." i said "it won't be possible" he said" don't worry... i wont let u fall" i just looked at him .. he again said... trust me.. i will not let u fall.. hold my hand... i wont let it go"... i hold his hand ..tried pulling myself up... but my hand hurt...so finally gave a last try and as i was tring up i asked to help me pull up my legs.. and with his support i was up... in this due coarse while coming up i lost my balance a bit and i thought i am dead.. i closed by eyes...
after few seconds i opened my eyes.. and saw that i did not slip of the edge and was next to him ...he was holding my hand tight... i was scared...i practically shouted at him.. i told you... this was crazy.. ur mad ..and god knows what all... he replied.. "i told you i wont let u fall.. i wont leave your hand...."
That moment was something else...We were sitting their for a moment to grab all the senses back to normal...after a while when i realized what just happened...we stood a bit and took support of the rocks to climb back... i was tired while going up and was angry on myself for being so stupid and risking my life in such manner... i started saying bad words to him... n my anger energy was helping to climb the rocks ...all the way till we reached to the top i was cursing him for convincing me to do such stupid stuff..n he was laughing smiling all the way... strange i ddn say abt this episode to anyone...
Once i reached to the top... my anger also went away like a wind.... after sometime we went ahead in exploring other places of hill.... we were able to see some of my friends coming back from top of the hill and some were already enjoying the view from the top of the hill....
So we went ahead to join them on top of the hill...and yes... the view just let me vanished my fatigues.
The cool breeze drying the salty sweat...and I was just capturing all the pics in my back of my head...
After a while... we planned to get down and checkout the temple for which this hill was famous amongst the local... as we reached down...we dropped the plan to go inside the cave...this part is vague for me to recall... but I remember I did not went inside the cave... it was too much rush... I don't feel comfortable in closed spaces....
So time to head back to our colg... we started walking down the hill to the place were we left our taxi expecting we can get some other public transport to head back to the city....
But we later realized that the bus we were suppose to catch has already left.. and the next bus in next 2hours...
We were bit hungry so we thought of grabbing small bites from the local shops of Mirchi pakoda and other had their tea...
Waiting their for half hour someone told us that was the last bus ...and we were bit shocked.. as the evening were about to start and we were stuck in a hill with no transport and it doesn't seem to have ppl or small town near by...All the locals go back down in the evening... and felt bit scary after hearing this...
After lot of thinking and discussion, we planned to walk down the hill...
"Walking!!!!" I looked down... my legs were all swollen and we needed to walk down the hill and it would be minimum 10-20 km walking to reach the city...
Well!!! We had to move... couldn't stay their and expect that the bus will come back for us...
But I was worried that my legs wont allow... my sandals were already killing me... and walking was like a impossible task...
We started walking down the hills... everybody was enjoying and chatting with each other... and I was walking silently struggling to walk without pain.... but after 20 min my sandals were too slippery as my palms were too sweaty... I stopped multiple times... in between to reset my sandals so that i could walk more properly... and with each intervals.. my other friends started walking ahead... and I was walking behind...
But I was not left alone... he gave me company... as he was seeing me.. he understood its was getting difficult for me to walk.. after a while I thought of walking bare foot... and i opened my sandals and felt bit relieved .... at least my sandal was not hurting me anymore...
i took my sandals on my hand and started walking... it felt better but my legs palms skin were really soft ,like a baby skin... the road stone sharp edges were hurting my leg... and it was making me more difficult to walk...
I tried to walk but after a while... the stone were equally hurting me so thought of that i have walked for 20mins and my legs swelling should have gone down and i would be able to wear my sandals as my legs are no more sweaty and it wont be difficult to walk...
Due to these event my group was walking ahead of me and we were behind...i guess my group thought may be i am purposely staying behind to enjoy his company, but reality was it was getting difficult for me walk any further and he was genuinely trying to help me in the best possible way by giving company to me... and not letting me worry that I be left behind...
After swapping from bare foot to sandals and back to bare foot ... we must have walked for 45 mins ...and we realized that a bus has gone up ...and we felt relieved that the bus will return and come back down, we thought of catching it while it comes back... so we move ahead and looked for the next bus stop...
While walking i took his support so that i can grab speed but he too realized that its getting difficult for me to walk so... he offered my his sandals... it was big obviously... but i said no.. it was not rite for me to were his sandals and he walk bare foot... but he insisted so much... that i wore it...and it was really comfortable... though his sandals size is lot bigger but was really comforting to my legs at that time... so while walking i took support of him by grabbing his hand...and my group keep on looking back and god know what all ideas they were getting...
At that point of time i was going through mixed feeling... my best girlfriends who should be supporting me here to walking freely and they were ahead of me... and looking back they gave me this look that we both are enjoying...which i felt really bad...and he was being a gentleman who gave me his footwear to wear so that i am comfortable and he was walking bare foot...he need not have to give company to me... he need not have to give his footwear to me... and walk bare foot....
When i saw him he was looking happy, and i was asking myself " what are you doing? you have already said to him you don't feel for him and now why you are doing things which couples for others...why are you giving him mixed signals..???"
But my heart felt differently... my heart felt warmth for him.. he was so caring for me... when my friends were misunderstanding me...he was for whatever intentions the best friend to be...
So we reached to a point were their were two diversion and we stopped and waited their for our bus to come...i returned him his footwear but he insisted to keep wearing ...somehow i convinced him that my sandal is ok now ... so we sat down waiting for the bus to return...
Finally bus was here... we went in and found no sitting place ..so we were standing... and he was next to me keeping strangers hands away from me...trying to protect me...and we reached city and went back to our hostel....
I FELT PROTECTED around him......
So we went ahead to join them on top of the hill...and yes... the view just let me vanished my fatigues.
The cool breeze drying the salty sweat...and I was just capturing all the pics in my back of my head...
After a while... we planned to get down and checkout the temple for which this hill was famous amongst the local... as we reached down...we dropped the plan to go inside the cave...this part is vague for me to recall... but I remember I did not went inside the cave... it was too much rush... I don't feel comfortable in closed spaces....
So time to head back to our colg... we started walking down the hill to the place were we left our taxi expecting we can get some other public transport to head back to the city....
But we later realized that the bus we were suppose to catch has already left.. and the next bus in next 2hours...
We were bit hungry so we thought of grabbing small bites from the local shops of Mirchi pakoda and other had their tea...
Waiting their for half hour someone told us that was the last bus ...and we were bit shocked.. as the evening were about to start and we were stuck in a hill with no transport and it doesn't seem to have ppl or small town near by...All the locals go back down in the evening... and felt bit scary after hearing this...
After lot of thinking and discussion, we planned to walk down the hill...
"Walking!!!!" I looked down... my legs were all swollen and we needed to walk down the hill and it would be minimum 10-20 km walking to reach the city...
Well!!! We had to move... couldn't stay their and expect that the bus will come back for us...
But I was worried that my legs wont allow... my sandals were already killing me... and walking was like a impossible task...
We started walking down the hills... everybody was enjoying and chatting with each other... and I was walking silently struggling to walk without pain.... but after 20 min my sandals were too slippery as my palms were too sweaty... I stopped multiple times... in between to reset my sandals so that i could walk more properly... and with each intervals.. my other friends started walking ahead... and I was walking behind...
But I was not left alone... he gave me company... as he was seeing me.. he understood its was getting difficult for me to walk.. after a while I thought of walking bare foot... and i opened my sandals and felt bit relieved .... at least my sandal was not hurting me anymore...
i took my sandals on my hand and started walking... it felt better but my legs palms skin were really soft ,like a baby skin... the road stone sharp edges were hurting my leg... and it was making me more difficult to walk...
I tried to walk but after a while... the stone were equally hurting me so thought of that i have walked for 20mins and my legs swelling should have gone down and i would be able to wear my sandals as my legs are no more sweaty and it wont be difficult to walk...
Due to these event my group was walking ahead of me and we were behind...i guess my group thought may be i am purposely staying behind to enjoy his company, but reality was it was getting difficult for me walk any further and he was genuinely trying to help me in the best possible way by giving company to me... and not letting me worry that I be left behind...
After swapping from bare foot to sandals and back to bare foot ... we must have walked for 45 mins ...and we realized that a bus has gone up ...and we felt relieved that the bus will return and come back down, we thought of catching it while it comes back... so we move ahead and looked for the next bus stop...
While walking i took his support so that i can grab speed but he too realized that its getting difficult for me to walk so... he offered my his sandals... it was big obviously... but i said no.. it was not rite for me to were his sandals and he walk bare foot... but he insisted so much... that i wore it...and it was really comfortable... though his sandals size is lot bigger but was really comforting to my legs at that time... so while walking i took support of him by grabbing his hand...and my group keep on looking back and god know what all ideas they were getting...
At that point of time i was going through mixed feeling... my best girlfriends who should be supporting me here to walking freely and they were ahead of me... and looking back they gave me this look that we both are enjoying...which i felt really bad...and he was being a gentleman who gave me his footwear to wear so that i am comfortable and he was walking bare foot...he need not have to give company to me... he need not have to give his footwear to me... and walk bare foot....
When i saw him he was looking happy, and i was asking myself " what are you doing? you have already said to him you don't feel for him and now why you are doing things which couples for others...why are you giving him mixed signals..???"
But my heart felt differently... my heart felt warmth for him.. he was so caring for me... when my friends were misunderstanding me...he was for whatever intentions the best friend to be...
So we reached to a point were their were two diversion and we stopped and waited their for our bus to come...i returned him his footwear but he insisted to keep wearing ...somehow i convinced him that my sandal is ok now ... so we sat down waiting for the bus to return...
Finally bus was here... we went in and found no sitting place ..so we were standing... and he was next to me keeping strangers hands away from me...trying to protect me...and we reached city and went back to our hostel....
I FELT PROTECTED around him......
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