No where to go...

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well! yes, the new year came.. and i am all upset not because how i started this year...but why i let anyone come close to me....why i allowed someone to grow on me...

with time i learned to be alone...and i need to learn again to be alone... which is so easy to be...

never let anyone come close to you ...never hurt anyone...never be affected by anyone....

its was weird last year... i thought maybe i can give myself a second chance in life... but how i can forget the curse gifted to me...i can never be good for anyone..and never let anyone come close to me...and finally achieved in what i intended to do... i am getting pro in this....

i am just glad whomever i met in life... they have finally found their best friends...and i wish them best of love, life and happiness they deserve....

i have no regret that i hurt people who were coming close to me...though i know in the process i hurt them and knowing that i hurt myself more...

....... and the chapter end..... in the end my mind wins over and heart already habituated of crying on its own!

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