The Feeling of Everyone is better than You!

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In this one year time , i met so many new people ...
and every time we meet for first time ...it always feel good.. coz both show the good side of each other....

in few more meeting we like each other company... but eventually we noticed either one of us would like each other company more than a friend.....and their it complicate stuff...

Coz everyone feels maybe this could work out... and every time though i like the person or not... always feel .. "their is always someone better than You" and i tend to show door to them... so that they don't come close to me...

i hurt my heart so much... that it has believed now ..."Everyone is better than You"

When i see all these people having fun with someone else... i know what i am missing... but i always say back to my heart... see you are meant to be ALONE... they all deserve much better...and they got...

Someone asked me why you feel that your aren't lucky...
Coz i don't let ppl come close to me...i am afraid to show them the real me.. coz i know they will fall for me... but i know the vulnerability stage i am in....and i can easily be attached to anyone.. for even a fraction of affection or emotion they show...

I guess that why i keep this hard shell... a person who can break and stick with me... can see a completely different person ..who i really am....

i know ppl do come across with glimpse of it.. but trust me... no one has yet recently seen the real me...they do proclaim to know me well! but they know little how well i can read them and can tell what they know about me is fraction of me...

And i guess i am genuinely waiting for a guy who can stickup with me...and look through me....
No wonder... i say i am not a easy person...

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