Confused! Lost!

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Strange human feel scared....so do i... but at some point i was scared to be happy and loose some imp people in my life...
now i am scared for my lifeline....

Confused !! Good!! i am writing this story with completely confused scared mindset....for whatever situation i am in....

Life is simple!!! but my nature doesn't accept anything for simple... let it be my love life, my family life... my professional life... if its simple... than something is definitely missing... or let say i cant digest simple....

Today when i am writing about my past... i just feel ...why i complicated my life in so many different ways...and even i realize the fact i cant un-complicate them any more...

What a confused complicated mindset i carry....

Every time i think its over... it never made it happen... and every time i wished for a miracle ...it never happens...

When i literally thought and made my mind... something pulled me back...
When i am moving forward ...i want someone to pull me back...

now this is a mindset of a confused scared personality... isn't it?

Today ! what i am ? what i wana be? who i am ? whom i want to be ? where i am?
Bloody hell!!! no clue..... but till date... when i fall-sick...when i feel lonely in a strange places...when i am scared... when i feel alone...when i feel saddest... one thing still remains the same...

i remember him... i miss him....he still bring strength to fight my own fights.... my imaginations....always wanders....ML





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