Silent Treatment.... Nor the Present or the Future

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Months after i am writing back ...
Don't know which story i shall tell... coz years passed by and years waited....

This is story of me living without him.... we were together for 6 years... and today we are apart for 6 years...
i have undone all the things we did... and finally he said "Not the Present or The Future"
I waited 6 years for him to say this back to me finally saying that Miaka your free from all your promises..

Finally without asking... without listening he indirectly said "You live or die... your free from me....".
I am glad i am no more than a stranger in his life... where at this stage... where i stand.... i am just glad... that he doesn't love me or feel the need to know about me.... once and for all

6 years i never ever even once tried to win him back... never ever tried any ways to be in touch... but i always wished he at least would consider me his well wisher , his friend....

Truth... i know what i was putting myself into... Truth...before he said i knew what he was about to say....
Truth.... i could feel him when he is sad....Truth.... i know why he said and did things and what they actually mean rather the words coming out from his mouth...
Truth ... without knowing without saying... he said exactly what i needed to hear... 6 years passed and still he believes strongly to know me too well....

This is a love story...difference is.... it started one sided.... turned to two sided.... and now it stands....

Years without him.... let me know myself...let me drive myself to the extreme craziness and best of senses...
But unknowing .... with these years passing by ... i became more of him ...and he became more of me... as if we switched places of our life.

Going forward shall be the story of how i pushed him and made him to unloved me...and believe me as his worst mistake ....

But it doesn't end their....story of a girl who loved a guy forever... too the last breath....and never stopped celebrating her story.... anniversaries....
Happy Anniversary!!!









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