I call Myself ..A Peaceful Warrior

i know its been long time since i have written any story.... i am going through one of my most difficult phase of my life... when my close ones ask me one Q's and i have no answer to reply them back...This year has been the most volatile and turmoil phase....were I am being forced to face my worst fears...and live with it.... Well! my story is around the turmoils phase of my life...were he was the stability ... Going back to my 2nd year...The year were we see new fresher's face entering our colg and we start the treatment of being the seniors... Till date if i give a word i commit to it... no one can force me not even me can force my heart to commit to something which my heart disagree.. Post all the turmoils and ups and downs in my colg life... i cherished the two friends who were my roommate.. i felt i had a best friend of that phase... but little i knew than, that one fine day i had to choose... not by saying but by my action.. i had to choose between a new frien...

Back to writing ..after a long interval.. Today is his special day ... N the best way to remember this day are the ones ...remembering him on his special day... I don't know , how to start.... Let take his first b'day ..which he celebrated with us... Before starting up this story... I remember i was a love story freak... Belived in love so much.... Waiting for the perfect love...That i forgot to appreciate it when it was right in front of me.... Well...truth is i don't remember any of his b'day... Was i really bad??? I just remember... One year we went to a mall... Giving away him a gift... N it was the 1st time we were alone n went out on our own... I gave him a "thought of the day calendar"... N wrote happy bday to my dear friend... N he said was it necessary to write ... I must be a real bad person...that i don't remember his special day properly Last year of colg i couldn't celebrate ,coz exam was held near his b'day... So we celebr...

Well ! After the adventurous trip... and the 2nd semester eventful period it was time to return home... this time I was going to my home in UP...ddn knew this trip would give me so many goose bumps...and it still does... So... before the exams I went with my group for the first time book my train ticket... yupp...somewhere sometime something shall always be my first experience... Well, before i was booking mine , few days before he told me that he is also going to delhi... i asked him why.... and he gave many excuses..... i said no to him ... i ddn wanted his family to feel that because of me he is going to delhi rather he should be going to his own home. His family must be eager to see him as my family shall be for me... After lot of scrutinising  he shared the real reason for his travel with me " he will drop me off as i was travelling alone and than he shall move to his hometown after staying for day or two with his bro"... i said ...

it was my first outdoor trip with no guardians... i was nervous and excited for my new phase of life... don't remember what i have dreamt those days... But those days he was my friend and i was more than a friend for him..... it was early morning..... and our group both guys and grls planned to go out to a near by hill station which sound adventurous.... The morning arrived, my first outdoor trip and only friends....excited and nervous both at the same time... We girls dressed up and walked out of the colg campus , where our guy friends were waiting for us with a cab that we booked earlier for the trip.... We thought that cab would be good idea to reach to that hill stations and we thought while returning we shall take a bus.... who ddn know what exactly was planned for us... well.. as said before they were waiting for us outside the colg campus...it was small variant car, and i really don't know how we 6 adjusted in that cab...still caring a vague picture in back ...