My Last Minute....

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You know.. i am not good in story writing...good? i say i am worst in writing anything down....
Blogger suppose to write about something or someone...i guess...

For me this blog is about to remember the best days of the my life...without saying out loud....
Remembering him .... only through seeing him in my dreams and thoughts..."though wished for more.."

You know if you have one sec- one last minute of ur life and ur all alone... and that thing your thinking off... is the only thing matters to u... all your life...

for me...my last minute... my last breath... is saying him i love you always... and forever... and see the love in his eyes....
but stupid me... messed up all .... lost her chance...

am no happy go lucky girl... luck stays far far away when it comes in dealing matter related to my heart... and i messed up bad.... i pushed him away... with only one intention in mind.... that he deserve better...i dint deserve him

Actually today, looking back in the 4 years of not being with him.. not saying a word to him...
lieing to the world ... that i am ok... which i know i will never be...

Thinking ahead...what m made for.... the BIG Picture???...i guess, m still trying to figure it out where i fit in...

 Mind...Said he deserve better , i don't deserve him... than why my heart says... no matter what the hell happened and happening... u will always love him...n ur mind can never push that away....

Either i have lost my mind... or i seriously i must have lost my mind..coz i am pouring my heart out here...

Yes after all this years passed by, my love for you grew stronger...rather fading away...

I dint know... will i ever get to be lucky in this life...but this is my life... and he is my life...
i do wish for us to be us back again... and every-time i wish that i wish him more to be happy...

so yeah this selfish little no lucky girl... wishes him to be happy...and his dreams come true.. and he fall in love and be in love with his one...

but that doesn't change the meaning in my life.. u will always the be d one...so i am sorry for pushing u...hurting u...cribbing .... but i am not sorry to love u always and forever...and Ur my life..

I think i will go on all my life like this.. so stopping ...

Hope to see u smile!!! "Hope" to see u... i know it's selfish... but hope to get lucky... though that like hoping to see the atom...but i still hope.. and always did.. and always will... coz no matter what... i will be with u...and love u forever...and pray for u everyday till i live.. love..


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