Played Truth or Dare and ended up with the BIGGEST DAY of my LIFE...

Today is a special day .. Which only comes once in a year... And it turned out to be THE MOST special moment of my life...
well back to my colg life... It was a hot weekend... And the story is round before that special day occurred
Post the Exam result shocks... and back to regular colg life...
But this time for me it was very different...
Coz everyday some or other events occurring... and asking me only one Qs Its just me ... or this is really happening... i never told anybody... but i had this guts feeling that i am getting confused or i am just delusional... so moving on

Event 1: One fine evening.. we all were hanging out in the cafeteria... and he was playing basketball with his friends...
Looking him played....(secretly i loved him... and started to like him a lot...)but u know.. grls dont show... so i showed nthin.. or hope i was showing nothing...we girls were in cafe...having some snacks and drinks... talking about boys.. ( or say others were and i was jus listening to them) ...
After a while they came over and joined us...
He was all sweaty and wet... which i for no reason at tht point of time liked it...
Weird to remember this... coz his body odour does not stink me... i kinda liked his smell....(sounds grose but true...)
Anyways, out of blue... b/w our conversation a girl suggested we played TRUTH or DARE...
So we started.. some Qs thrown... and some dare activity done... than all of a sudden , it was his turn to choose TRUTH or DARE...
at that moment... my heart was pounding so fast...i ddn know why...but i guess my heart knew lots of things long before i know them..
Well he chose TRUTH... and someone asked him about,whom he has crush on....
I just thought he would say name of some beautiful grl in the colg.. for whom all boys are mad about.
I thought he would say some grl from electronics sec... n was hoping nthing wat came next from his mouth...so i was looking on the floor...to not show any kind of emotion from my eyes...and
he said: " please dont take it in a wrong way, i like "miaka"(name changed).. " he took me completely offgaurd... i was surprised... and i looked at him ....(though i tried to  show him no reaction; but i was on cloud 9; i was so happy from inside...and finally a rush of warm blood from heart paced down my heart speed, and of-course my nervousness) and jus tht 2nd moment when i was in cloud 9... a friend of mine told me... that was expecting.. and back again gave a me thought.. why she said that... but u know that feeling.. of being his crush... being liked by him.. where secretly... i liked him too...
i always thought he out of my league... he too good for me... i dont deserve him.. but yeah i have my crush...and it was him... strange never told this to him ever....

Event 2: Few days after the above event... it was a weekend... we all girls were siting together in a friends rooms and jus chatting after lunch... again, they all decided to play TRUTH and DARE...
and again... after all other turn..my turn came... as same Question TRUTH or DARE???

Gave a lot of thought and said TRUTH...
And someone asked me a weirdest form of Q ever...
If he proposes u.. and say i love u ...wat would be ur ans???..
it took me completely off-guard... like..why is she asking me this Q... i don't think he is into me...
Or why would he propose me... am just another ordinary girl... not beautiful... and definitely he is out of my league..so why the hell he would ever do that.. and why others think he will do that based on which they asked me this Q....
But they asked me , so i needed to respond...
And i said to them : if this comes...which i think it wont... i will only say.. that he is good friend of mine... and i can only offer him that....

The whole evening was like... again a mystery puzzle... that what others know that i don't... why people are reacting in such a manner that.... giving me a feeling that their is something my friends do know that i don't... and it was making me crazy ...coz i was not able to solve the puzzle...

Event 3: One day he challenged me that i wont be able to chat with him all night... and we were like.. talking and talking.. but yeah via sms...all night...till 3pm .. it was like my first longest conversation with him ... and finally i gave up... and told him i am too sleepy...and we were only sending  one word in the message to each other till that time i gave up... and he was so so happy about winning the challenge..
for me i was surprised to see myself chatting to a guy for such a long time... and he was not even bored of me....

Event 4: Other Colg Festival...we all dressed up girly... and all set to attend the fest ... i was wearing a black top and blue jeans and for change i was out with my hair open....we girls planned a night out and stay up in a hotel...i guess this was the 1st wildest thing i would be doing in my life..
We all reached to the colg gate entrance (opps forgot to tell , this is about a some other's colg festival which was in the same city) .. all girls were looking beautiful... dressed up.. to impress guys.. and flirt with them...ha ha
Well back to the story, we all reached to the colg entrance.. where our guy friends would be waiting for us... and helping us go the fest location...
We were walking...toward the colg ... and few friends came by... but he was missing...
someone told me that he has few friends around .. and he has gone to meet them...
After walking few minutes... i saw him walking towards me...
i still cant forget the smile he gave away when he looked at me...
i know their are lot of things i never told him...and one is that he made my day with that smile...
u know why, because unknowingly i was all dressed up to impress him... yeah my friends insisted to dress good.... but i dress up for him... coz i like the way he looks at me...
Well we all went were the stage was set up... enjoyed the music...and plays ...screamed out loud...
and he was their with me... and we all were enjoying the nite...
And its was time to head back... find a place to sleep...
But u know small cities and hypocritical mentality, it was nite ...and guys with us made things worse... hotel owners thought we are the nite party girls... and that time ..being out of the protective world , i felt sad for me... and more sad for the ladies who are actually are in this line and people don't respect them for the job profile they carry.. They are humans too... they feel hurt ,sad,happy like any other people

Well we all failed to get a room to stay in... and small cities with small mentality of people, ddn do any good for us ... so its about to be midnight and we are outside our colg hostel gate...fear to get in..coz our warden would not be happy ...
Well we waited for long to actually figure out where to spend the night... some said in a guys flat..and guy would stay in someone else place...or a girls hostel which is outside the campus.. or dare to step in and take the hit of the warden and go back to our own bed and sleep...

But as i said , this was the wildest nite planned for us... we would not be ending up in our own bed... but in the end of half hour wait up... few girls decided "wat the hell... let go back to our own bed...we shall see what the warden has to say for us..."
but i was not one of those girls who went in.. coz few stayed back... so 1 down ..2 option to go for...

one of our college mate was not comfortable with idea spending the night in someone flat.. though the flat would be all for the girls for that night... but since the option was to spend the nite in a flat which belongs to guys.. was also in a turn down category....

came down the 3rd option ..the girls hostel which was outside the campus... we checked with the girls who lived there ..but they were more insisting on not to allow us.. as their were already extra group of girls who is spending night after enjoy the nite in the fest like us...

now their was a tussle.. spend a nite in a guys flat or spend a nite outside the hostel with no bed...

But our friend was consistent .. that she is ready to stay all nite up on the road... but refuse to spending nite in a flat...irrespective of the thought that no guys would living with us...

Well that apart... irrespective of whatever details has been shared above... the point was... the guys came back to us to help us to get a place...as we were not getting any hotel room or even autos for that infact..
He saw me... and he saw that i was really sad... and he felt it too... because for this was the wildest things happened to me in the "b on your own world".. and truly speaking i was glad he was their...
this is the 1st time i felt good being protected by him...

Well finally somehow we were able to convince the TL of the girls hostel.. and requested them to let us spend the nite over their place ... so finally we entered to their hostel... and found that they were telling the truth.. already the place was overcrowded with girls.. but the moment we entered ..it felt a bit more safe.. rather than standing on the road outside in middle of the night...

Now came down... how to sleep... we all were on the balcony of the hostel... open roof... bare floor... and no comfort of bed...and yes a bit of sadness on how the people treated us outside the hotel...
But that all faint away... and i ended up speaking to him all night.. coz i know he was worried for me.. and i was comfortable with him..

We spoke all night on phone ..till i assured him that i b fine.. and as the dawn breaks in we all shall be in our own beds...
That night would have very different , if he would not be around to make me comfortable.. if he would not be their to make me feel special for the way i dressed.. and talked to me all night...
That day would be the wildest night for me... and would have been the worst nite if he would not be around with me... he made my wildest night the best wildest night ever... so that's my best memories to live on with..

So the dawn breaks in, and we all headed towards our hostel... with the daylight we all felt that we have the best weirdest wildest nite ever.. and now its SAFE that we are going back to our bed after a great adventure.


Event 5: I guess this day we had our 1st fight... unknowingly..and still remembering the date: April 17,2004
Its was a nice evening...after our dinner.. we girls where just chilling around near our rooms... girls gossiping... and i was chatting with him on phone via sms...
all of a sudden.. he was asking me about some other girl..as one of his friends like her lot...
it was more like giving information about some other girl to a guy who likes her...

i don't know how our conversation turned into a fight... but the above incident did turned me into a bad mood .. as i responded to him.. that i am not that kind of girl who would go behind a girls back and share information about the girl to a guy... if he want to know about her.. ask him to directly talk to her.. rather asking from me...

that fight was like something ... coz we ddn speak to each other till the BIG day...
i was mad at him..coz he know i don't like to bitch about girls nor...talk about other ppl behind their back and he was angry because he took me in a wrong way....

Well After Fight Day 1, Date:April 18 ,2004: We ddn speak to each other... but he was mad...and so was i... as this was still the beginning for 2nd semester..senior ragging never got over... over the period i always thought why...why these things are happening to me... why i feel that this is not over... why i felt that something big is going to happen..
my whole mind was on jus roaming around on this, and during my workshop in the afternoon ... i was bit angry and i took all of my energy is cutting the metal....
1st time my anger helped me complete my workshop as my hand were too soft to carry for long.
That day i was like taking out all my anger ,all the negative energy on that piece of metal...

Well,in the evening our group was sitting together outside the cafeteria and a message came..
the message was from one of my friend asking how i was doing and what happening b/w me and his friend (whom i fought)... i was chatting with him and felt like someone cared to ask how i feel... and our conversation was going for long... suddenly i saw him in front of me...and i was shocked...i asked him if ur here whom i am chatting with.... and later i came to know that i was chatting with my him... the one...

Well..again i felt why he is using some other source to chat with me... if he is mad about the fight.... than why he is talking to me....

Well who knew wat was coming next... atleast i ddn...

The Day Came April 19:2004: For some reason it felt like the result day... like something very important was to happen today..a very important judgement was to be announced.
i got up early... look out of my balcony... thinking and dreaming what was about to happen... trust me in my mind ,i was thinking today he would come and meet me and say somthing and break our friendship forever... i was jus thinking like today shall be the end of somthing...

got ready..when to colg ...attended my classes ...but my heart and mind was someplace else... i might have thought of the event like in 1000 variation.. but still had many more to think about... i dont know how i passed that day....

Well the classes where finally over and whole time i was just looking at my watch thinking 5 hours left ...4....3....2...1 30 min..20 mins... that clock was ticking and so was my heart racing

well... i went to the cafeteria where we were suppose to meet.. i was waiting outside the cafe...with my friends and very nervous.... i guess 30 mins passed and he ddn come... i thought may be ... he has no plans to come... he was not picking up anybdys call... so i finally left a message to him... if u were not interested to meet u should have said that clearly... and he messaged back to me... that he i coming he was outside the campus...

i saw him coming from the far on the sidewalk of the main entrance road... and he was looking really serious... like he will just gonna come ,talk about the fight ..prove me wrong... and break our friendship forever

Well.. he came and i was with the group... we sat in the cafeteria...and i asked my friends to wait outside .. i need to speak to him on my own...
but he insisted to have one of his friends to be their as a third party , a living proof , a referee to decide who was right or who was wrong

I dont know exactly how our conversation turned out to be but the sun did set and i needed to head back... we were talking about the reason on our fight and i don't think our thinking matched... and it was time for me to return... and while going back ...on the way from cafeteria to the ccd...he was walking with me..and i was thinking that this is the last min of mine with him conversating...and
all of a sudden he raised a Q.....
Wat do u think about boyfriends...???
i was thinking like wat... weren't we were fighting just a min ago....All of a sudden where did that come from...
i asked wat he has to do with this topic...he insisted ... and i told him ..for me bf does not exist in my dictionary.. i am not saying bf is bad... i m saying for me... i am not made for that...

He said... i knew that.....
and again...i was thinking if he knew that than why is he asking me this...and why is he asking me all of sudden... helloooo weren't we were fighting a min ago...

than watever he said next ..changed my life forever...

he said ,he know that i don't believe in bfs.. nor he is proposing me... but he wanted me to know that he loves me..." I Love You"....
practically i got numb... i looked at him and he said to me again "I Love You"

i ddn know wat to say... i was caught completely offgaurd... now jus min ago we were fighting.... wat do u expect i could even dream that wat could come next...

he said...i know that wat your ans will be ...but its i am asking you...
in my mind...was having 1000s of Q wat ?? huh?? how?? when?? where ???

and than it reminded me of a Q a friend asked me in truth or dare.. that if he ask me this..wat would be my ans to him...

i thought i cant back of my word... and said to him.. that i don't feel the same.. but u were good friend of mine and i offer u that...

nobdy knows whenever someone tried to like me or approach me.. i came to know and i used to completely cut off from that person... not even the friendship

this time he caught me offgaurd and 1st time ever i offered him friendship back...

today also... he is the only person who has approached me and still i offer him the same...

again he said...." i knew it... but i need to clear my mind.... and said i will think about it..."

i than went back with my friends and on my way back .... i started cring... i don't know why... but i was cring... i thought i lost my friend....

but i guess i just ddn knew that time... that i love him 2... and have always been...

Wish i could have said "I Love You 2"........

My Journey Just began....More to come...