The Results are out!!
Well... we came back from the vacation ... and were all excited for the new semester ..new classes...new adventures... and of course... hoping we shall do all the things in a correct manner this time.... but i guess everyone knows how it ends-up every semester...
Well this story is of the time when our 1st sem results were out.... we all were scared , ddn know what would be our result... we all think we did well in our exams.. but the result declared was a surprise for all of us...
Somehow i cleared.. but was disappointed with the marks obtained.... but for others it was more to shock than a surprise for ppl whom we never expected them to get failed in few papers...so here it goes
Standing in-front of the result board...feeling disappointed of my performance... i turned around...
thinking of whom to ask about other ppl results.. but ddn dare to... as i was more embarrassed with my own performance, if i ask anybody else.. i need to give away my performance report to them too.. so i dropped the thought and went straight to my hostel room...
For long i ddn know what to do, so i just lie on my bed...feeling pitty on myself..and fear how to face world.. yes i know this sound very dramatic...but that was the feeling i was going through..
Suddenly... ppl start absorbing all the surprise and shocks they need to know... n slowly without asking or telling... we came to know how other ppl performed... and so did his...
First i was shocked.. coz though i ddn know him that well... but was aware that he told me he is one of the good performing students of his life...never failed ...never experienced it.. n yes based on the exam preparation i saw.. he always end up finishing all his revision day before the exam..which was one of the remarkable thing i admired about him...
But, also came to know that he was not ready to accept the facts.. his friends were good friends of mine.. and they were continuously been giving update to them about how is not able to take it... though his friend was failed in multiple paper but he was more concerned how he was doing rather than thinking about himself...
All of his friends were trying to cheer him up...but he was going down under... he ddn even want to speak to anybody..not to his family even...
one evening... all our common friends.. wanted me to speak him... get him out of the state he is presently in... i told them... if he is not listening to any of his good friends why would he listen to me...but they insisted... they told me he is not out of his room for 2 days...and he is planning to leave the colg... n in back of my mind ..i was only thinking ,why everybody think that i would be able to help him out... we don't know each other that well..anyways... i agreed ..only because i thought if the guy is so depressed and giving a thought to leave his colg..i thought of his family.. n next thing is did was only for his family...
But u know that was the transition phase for me... you know why... i never explained to anybody... i never open up to anybody to express my thoughts ... it was more difficult for me ..as i needed to learn to express..which i never did in my whole life....not even with my family.
So one evening everybody told me.. he will mes me, as everybody told him to speak to me...(again was still thinking what the hell m i doing... m no good at it)
So that day came... i was having lunch with my friends in their room.. n suddenly... his mes came.. we started off with light conversation...asking about what we are doing... and all...
Than he started sharing..that he leaving the colg... he do not have the guts to tell his family about his results... and i was shunt.. i dont know how to express him ..how to say to him things.. that you only seeing a small picture of your life... and need to the larger version... i guess we spoke on message for an hour or more.. and in end of the conversation.. i surprised myself... that i actually was able to express him my thought...i actually convinced him OMG!!!!... it was a very strange feeling that i was going through.. felt like i passed an exam... n told nobody about it till today... that day i surpassed a phase of my life... the phase that changed me... n helped me to start expressing my feeling and thoughts...
That day i dont know if i help him in anyway or not.. but that day was a day to remember bcoz he help me to open up.. he helped me to put my thoughts into words... and i thank him for that....
But ofcourse... after that my head was very heavy... felt like 1000 hammers hitting on my head... and finally our true friendship started...
Yes this is just a start... more to come....
Well this story is of the time when our 1st sem results were out.... we all were scared , ddn know what would be our result... we all think we did well in our exams.. but the result declared was a surprise for all of us...
Somehow i cleared.. but was disappointed with the marks obtained.... but for others it was more to shock than a surprise for ppl whom we never expected them to get failed in few papers...so here it goes
Standing in-front of the result board...feeling disappointed of my performance... i turned around...
thinking of whom to ask about other ppl results.. but ddn dare to... as i was more embarrassed with my own performance, if i ask anybody else.. i need to give away my performance report to them too.. so i dropped the thought and went straight to my hostel room...
For long i ddn know what to do, so i just lie on my bed...feeling pitty on myself..and fear how to face world.. yes i know this sound very dramatic...but that was the feeling i was going through..
Suddenly... ppl start absorbing all the surprise and shocks they need to know... n slowly without asking or telling... we came to know how other ppl performed... and so did his...
First i was shocked.. coz though i ddn know him that well... but was aware that he told me he is one of the good performing students of his life...never failed ...never experienced it.. n yes based on the exam preparation i saw.. he always end up finishing all his revision day before the exam..which was one of the remarkable thing i admired about him...
But, also came to know that he was not ready to accept the facts.. his friends were good friends of mine.. and they were continuously been giving update to them about how is not able to take it... though his friend was failed in multiple paper but he was more concerned how he was doing rather than thinking about himself...
All of his friends were trying to cheer him up...but he was going down under... he ddn even want to speak to anybody..not to his family even...
one evening... all our common friends.. wanted me to speak him... get him out of the state he is presently in... i told them... if he is not listening to any of his good friends why would he listen to me...but they insisted... they told me he is not out of his room for 2 days...and he is planning to leave the colg... n in back of my mind ..i was only thinking ,why everybody think that i would be able to help him out... we don't know each other that well..anyways... i agreed ..only because i thought if the guy is so depressed and giving a thought to leave his colg..i thought of his family.. n next thing is did was only for his family...
But u know that was the transition phase for me... you know why... i never explained to anybody... i never open up to anybody to express my thoughts ... it was more difficult for me ..as i needed to learn to express..which i never did in my whole life....not even with my family.
So one evening everybody told me.. he will mes me, as everybody told him to speak to me...(again was still thinking what the hell m i doing... m no good at it)
So that day came... i was having lunch with my friends in their room.. n suddenly... his mes came.. we started off with light conversation...asking about what we are doing... and all...
Than he started sharing..that he leaving the colg... he do not have the guts to tell his family about his results... and i was shunt.. i dont know how to express him ..how to say to him things.. that you only seeing a small picture of your life... and need to the larger version... i guess we spoke on message for an hour or more.. and in end of the conversation.. i surprised myself... that i actually was able to express him my thought...i actually convinced him OMG!!!!... it was a very strange feeling that i was going through.. felt like i passed an exam... n told nobody about it till today... that day i surpassed a phase of my life... the phase that changed me... n helped me to start expressing my feeling and thoughts...
That day i dont know if i help him in anyway or not.. but that day was a day to remember bcoz he help me to open up.. he helped me to put my thoughts into words... and i thank him for that....
But ofcourse... after that my head was very heavy... felt like 1000 hammers hitting on my head... and finally our true friendship started...
Yes this is just a start... more to come....
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