is it really just me?? or is this really happening??

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Well.. time passed by...
i always wondered why my friends where pushing me towards him...
why my friends where trying to find ways for him and me to connect....

the mystery ..the puzzle was running like a circle in back of my mind... and i just thought its just my thought that i am finding it weird ... nothing is true... everything what i am feeling is just made by my mind...

every single time i tried convincing myself thinking it just me... their nothing the other person feel the way i think... but their were moments that made to think ...and think ...and re-think...
is it really just me??? or is this really happening??

He is really looking at me... when everyone in the group is in the middle of a very serious discussion... was he really looking at me... is it really just me??? or is this really happening??

In the time when we are all busy preparing our final exam...i see him around... flirting with my friends...in the garden.. teasing them... and i just think it was just my mind who was thinking all that.. he is not interested in me..the very next moment he comes and sit just next to me... the second i start thinking what is happening to me...is it really just me?? or is this really happening??

Our 1st semester got over... we were all having the grand exit on the railway station platform.. our complete colg was for its train and so was he...

My Train was on the next day... but we all were their to see off our friends...
when we came to the station...i saw him standing with his group... as soon as i entered the station ... his friends hinted him that i have come... and he turned around and looked at me and smiled...
again the usual i saw him too and smiled but than looked other way round...pretending that everything is normal....but the real truth is i got shy...
i know his friends were teasing him in my name... and he was blushing....
yes i saw him... and i was looking at him though i pretended i was not at all looking at him....

He came to me... and was smiling... i asked him to give away my music cassette that he took few weeks back.. but he did not return... he was playing with me for a music cassette ,but he and i knew that was just an excuse for us to play around and communicate and laugh with each other...he wanted to spend time with me... and hidden manner (i did too).. i was sad too, as he was carrying my favorite music cassette and i wont be able to listen to it for the whole vacation.

Strangely i realize now, that was the 1st night in my life that i was out someplace with someone...
His Train Came and he was sitting...and we were still fighting for the cassette.. but he did not gave back..
and i gave up... i let him have it for the vacation.... i was surprised someone like me was so enthusiastic for the music which i used to listen for 1000 times...
we said our byes to each other...

Strangely that is the beginning of our story....

This is not the end
In our vacation tym....
He send me the e-card wishing me valentines day for the 1st tym ...1st person of my life to wish me valentines day...the card was really beautiful from our recently watched movies "Kal ho na ho" and few more...

Though me the stupid girl still thought..... is it really just me?? or is this really happening??

More to come soon....











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