I call Myself ..A Peaceful Warrior

I just couldn't believe what just happen....did he really say "I Love You" .. Hello!!!! i was still shock but more than that surprised, that i could be approached by him unexpectedly....... And i was talking to myself "Miaka whats wrong with you... you always knew if the guy likes you or not .. long before he dare to approach you... what happen this time, how you couldn't assess this before... how he could enter... when did you gave him the access.Were you ignorant to read all the signs. How you could not see what's was coming , this time." I just couldn't sleep that night... past moments were running in my mind... one of the most restless night... i don't remember when i fall asleep...i woke up morning... bit angry...bit aggressive behavior... because all this happen and i was the last person to know this... all our friend circle knew what was coming except me... everybody knew about his feeling.. friends who claimed they are my friends t...

You know.. i am not good in story writing...good? i say i am worst in writing anything down.... Blogger suppose to write about something or someone...i guess... For me this blog is about to remember the best days of the my life...without saying out loud.... Remembering him .... only through seeing him in my dreams and thoughts..."though wished for more.." You know if you have one sec- one last minute of ur life and ur all alone... and that thing your thinking off... is the only thing matters to u... all your life... for me...my last minute... my last breath... is saying him i love you always... and forever... and see the love in his eyes.... but stupid me... messed up all .... lost her chance... am no happy go lucky girl... luck stays far far away when it comes in dealing matter related to my heart... and i messed up bad.... i pushed him away... with only one intention in mind.... that he deserve better...i dint deserve him Actually today, looking back in th...

Today is a special day .. Which only comes once in a year... And it turned out to be THE MOST special moment of my life... well back to my colg life... It was a hot weekend... And the story is round before that special day occurred Post the Exam result shocks... and back to regular colg life... But this time for me it was very different... Coz everyday some or other events occurring... and asking me only one Qs Its just me ... or this is really happening... i never told anybody... but i had this guts feeling that i am getting confused or i am just delusional... so moving on Event 1: One fine evening.. we all were hanging out in the cafeteria... and he was playing basketball with his friends... Looking him played....(secretly i loved him... and started to like him a lot...)but u know.. grls dont show... so i showed nthin.. or hope i was showing nothing...we girls were in cafe...having some snacks and drinks... talking about boys.. ( or say others were and i was jus listening to...