M Scared !!!! Not able to See my future
First time... in my life... i am scared.... in few days i will have my first surgery experience.... Though this is very regular surgery... but i don't know i am scared...... I feel so lonely... so helpless...not a single one around to calm me down.... i miss my mom the most.... Past months since dad have come back home... i have started saying... who knows before you my number might come... and when i first told i was so afraid to say it....as if i say it would come true ... But lately... either me being scared and alone but the fear of losing myself is here.... I chose "Wednesday" d day of my surgery.... and i am scared...i know that day is the day of whatever happen shall happen for good... Lately, i told someone about the letter i wrote to my X....which shall go to him once i die... Lately, i have been made realized that there is no one who cares for u more than themselves... Lately, i feel so alone and scared.... I cant even say this to my family..... ...