I call Myself ..A Peaceful Warrior

When people use this word so casually, they don't know how it can impact the person they are saying this too... Someone said to me too...a friend ..a close friend... when said it... it hurts more...coz they just don't realize how hurtful these words can sound to the person from the person they are attached too... It just reflects the immaturity of a person...who actually fail to learn the difference between Depression and Solitude I feel sorry for the people who are actually are at that stage... coz normal people can never imagine the agony they are in...they mere is looking for acceptance...from one or from all... And it just makes me feel... get out of that place now!!!! Coz he has no idea... how many times he has made me cry...and no surprise he shall always misunderstand me...no surprise he shall forget me..coz he has done that before... Its just make me feel, I am best being alone... coz no one will ever hurt you or you shall ever do to anyone!!! I miss you, mo...

Looking back to old pictures and videos... remind me how much love has been showered to me.... Pure ..Serene... Unconditional love...that i couldn't handle.. N now people think i judge them or claim to know them too well... seriously... the person who can't handle her own life ..who is hardcoded that happiness can't stay with her... will ever judge or know anyone else... i just feel sorry for myself, that no one now can ever know me... or now I don't believe i shall ever meet someone who can now know me...those people who did already left me long ago...and i am too afraid to let anyone in... But i am just glad to see my people finding their happiness... i wish they always be happy and never find sadness anywhere Its time for me to start again my solitude journey!!!

Every time i hurt others i hurt myself more.... but nothing beats the pain given to me from my own loved ones... Simple words of not trusting your own child... who has been killing herself every moment with a smile on face... i have been struggling to keep up my smile.. and i am so unfortunate that i need to request my own people to please understand... people who have been there around me all my life... i have to literally put words and beg them to please understand and allow me to give my space to compose myself.... and what remarks come in return.. i just want to enjoy my life..and lie without worrying about them... i just can't take it any more mom.... am i that bad... that i am alone and no one i can hug too and cry on too... No clue they have, on how many times i have cried in dark.... No clue they have how many times i have fallen sick and never let them knew... I am a really tired mom... i just can't take this anymore on my own... i...