I call Myself ..A Peaceful Warrior

its not new to feel the emptiness... its not new to feel blank... but sometimes ...sometimes for some second... you miss not being empty.... well! i am currently in the most confused mindset...and tried ending and again ending the same thing... and i guess... as long as i am not hugging him... i am returning back to the hard self-version... With time i have been continuously hurting him... but its better that he never counter question me.. either he least bothered or some other reason... i am just glad... that the reverse is finally happening... finally i am changing myself again being emotionless... i understood one thing... if someone keeps soothing your weakness...you tend to get attached to them... i presume that what happened with me... the more i tried to disconnect ... that hug brought me back to feel human and normal... you know strange part of this year... all old people whom i disconnected... they connected back...and people who mattered to me... never bothered to mi...

well! yes, the new year came.. and i am all upset not because how i started this year...but why i let anyone come close to me....why i allowed someone to grow on me... with time i learned to be alone...and i need to learn again to be alone... which is so easy to be... never let anyone come close to you ...never hurt anyone...never be affected by anyone.... its was weird last year... i thought maybe i can give myself a second chance in life... but how i can forget the curse gifted to me...i can never be good for anyone..and never let anyone come close to me...and finally achieved in what i intended to do... i am getting pro in this.... i am just glad whomever i met in life... they have finally found their best friends...and i wish them best of love, life and happiness they deserve.... i have no regret that i hurt people who were coming close to me...though i know in the process i hurt them and knowing that i hurt myself more... ....... and the chapter end..... in the en...

Never imagined i had to always choose to break my heart and end something .... But the truth is always hard... he cleared his line ...and i had to walk out else i shall keep hurting myself... i never wanted anything but friendship... and he kept on lieing and finally when things started affecting me ..his lies did too... i accepted the way he was...but the reality was he never counted me to be his friends..and that unfortunate to learn....and he clarified on his b'day very well..by again lieing to me on my face and showing me the door..and that just did the job... so it was time for me to walk out from someone who hurt me so badly and he doesn't even know...seriously i thought i am the only selfish person... but there are people around me who is more... anyhow he never understood me... strange part last time he hurt..and i couldn't sleep from that moment on... so today i said to him... i am done with him... the moment i said that... my restless heart was calm...