I call Myself ..A Peaceful Warrior

Their will always be a day , when you remember your past... when your engrossed in your past memories... and today is  one of those days.... Remembering past has no harm... reliving past is always harmful.... Life never ask you twice ... but if it does , it nothing more than a MIRACLE... Once in my life i have live a MIRACLE , though every miracle comes with expiration date as well.... today , i felt deeply may be someone is missing me... but my foolish little heart...  know little that your just a past in someone memory... and reliving past is always harmful.... and when you realize this you come out of that fantasy world.. of MAY B's... i can just say today... hope you don't ever relive past... hope your present is worth remembering and living through your past...

Once when someone become your habit... than your struggle starts when things has to be undone...what has been done! I have went through the process so many times that i have lost count.... once the person gets addicted to you and you too get addicted to him,the fondness, the liking...sharing of thoughts ... exchanging words and making memory.... i guess everyone struggle when things are being asked to be undone! Some are strong and some emotional.... i have also learnt the art of undoing things... but whenever i am emotionally weak... i do realize i do the most stupid stuff in the world... where i ask myself why you do such stuff... don't you have any self respect for yourself.... when you choose to undo , why try to do stuff.... things i wished to undo... things i wished to do... but the only thing i don't ever want to undo.. is my memory... with time i have learned to undo a habit... undo a routine... undo a addiction.... but i shall never be able to undo my ...

Today i realized that me feeling GUILTY is just a Myth! And i am glad finally i have this realization... else i felt so bad ,the way i behaved with others and always thought me being bad person in this whole world! Everyone finds their happiness in one way or other...and i am glad that i am guilt free today! every time whenever i did bad with others.. i hurt myself more... But this realization just lifted my spirit.... hell with others! and Hello to ME! i always believed in the quote of Live and Let Live..and i am glad today i know the meaning of it! Sometime i did feel lonely... but every time whenever i felt lonely... i felt i am glad.. and it best that i am alone.... i dont need a best friend to cry on or laugh with... i dont need a hug anymore to move on! i dont need to be scared to walk alone! i dont need to feel guilty for the way i am with people... coz i am not here for them... i am here for me!!

Sometimes i feel.. i live in the world of delusion... Delusional.. that may be their is someone who misses you ... their is someone who looks back for you... But the fact of life is that its just me who is  delusional.. and think may be someone... xxxxx anyways... that the reality that i need to keep reminding myself.. that i don't live in a farytale world... their is no one to stand-up for you apart from you... their is no one who misses you or look back to you!!! Everyone is better off without me.. and that how it should be...that how i want it to be .... Atleast i am not delusional of being on my own... and best being Alone!

I have be listening the hindi version of this song in continuous loop these day... and Today i again with my basic habit .. i pushed ppl away... and i am glad... Second time, i got effected by him.. so it was high time i kept my distance from such ppl, who can unknowing just break my rhythm.. He is nice, emotional by heart...i still remember the cry baby face he made , when we first went out to a club...that just reflected his innocence... but eventually when i started knowing him... it was best i kept my distance from him.. my negative side should never impact anyone life in any manner... he is surrounded by his loved ones.. and ladies ..well! he know what he is looking for in life... and i can see through him ....and it was high time that i  move out from this... I am always thankful... as he accompanied me when my loved ones were not around... I am always thankful... coz he was the 1st to attempt to meet my father as a friend....and he made an effort... But i als...